Dude i dropped out of high school and i was getting offers from ivy league schools man . 🎓

I fucking threw a lot away — and even after i threw it all away, i rebuilt . 🔄

i went to a college, i got two degrees that were hard at the same time . 📚

i took 21 credits in a semester bruh . 😮‍💨

not many people can take 21 credits in engineering classes in a semester and get through it . most people would fail . 💪

I did hard internships . at 19 years old i was managing people in their 20s and 30s . 🧑‍💼

i was doing pitch competitions and i was grinding ! 🔥

My co founder wanted me to win, suceed ! 🤝

I had people i cared about, and people who cared about me 🥺

I had hope in my heart for the universe . ✨

MY MUM GAVE UP . SHE REFUSED TO WORK AND HER DOG DIED !!! 💔

Her dog died after i took her dog in . 🐕

I was homeless within a month and i hated everything, heart filled with bitterness ! 🏚️

I haven't selflessly loved anything or anyone in 4 years . 🧊

Its been 4 years of me just being angry and numb . 😶

My dog died and i was just done, pissed ! 😡

It was the last thing i loved, fuckin dead ! 🐾💔

It was a 2 year old dog bro, she killed it .

My mum killed multiple dogs, thats a fact . i shouldn't even say that but she did .

when i was 17, literally within a few months of my brother dying, heathegee poisoned my dog with antifreeze . 💀

You know how disgusting that is ? She locked it in a basement and poisoned her food with antifreeze — she didn't even watch him . Just let it die in the basement . 😔

I miss feeling loved 💟

I was passionately in love in highschool with a girl . i haven't felt love like that since . ❤️‍🩹

I have had girlfriends and shit but its always been shallow 😭

I used to feel love on the regular bruh .

Henry, i literally have a head injury . i literally am in pain . 🤕

i have inflammation in my brain stem . the left side of my head is in constant pain . 🧠

i blew everything i had . i had a fucking apartment .

im in a hotel room in las vegas with no money to my name, brain filled with pain . 🎰

i am acutely sensitive to everything im taking . i am truly one in a million . 🌟

i dont know what to fucking do man . I genuinely want an answer . 🙏

im afraid if i take a step wrong at this point i will die . 😞

I am sober at least . i am not being high . ✊

My body and my head hurt . im fucking miserable . 😩

I dont know how to meet people and make friends . every friend i made was thro school . 🫂

i need a new community . i need purpose . 🧭

i never had the ability to lucid inception .

i had a dream inside of my dream, and i consciously woke up from the dream inside the dream while i was dreaming — then went back to sleep inside of my dream . i went back to sleep while i was sleeping . 🌀

i remember i was in a gta video game type of dream, and it was like i could choose all these waypoints and choose all this shit . it was really weird . 🎮

i've been having inception dreams where i can see things inside of a dream . its made me believe aliens are real . i have alien dreams ALL the time now . 👽

i had a dream aliens are operating on my brain dude 🧠

I think i have schizophrenia . i think in 20 years i will hear voices and see shit, like i smoked so much fucking dabs, like james cmon . 😵‍💫

if i have a computer and a monitor then i can make some bullshit work to build some portfolio . 💻

How did i get a job at Microsoft ? i had a portfolio website with my name, and Microsoft could google me and see that shit . 🔍

When i was in the shleter, my shit was bad . that shelter was bad . 🏚️

it was the first time in my life my dad cut me off, like REALLY cut me off .

right now he doesn't cut me off — he just gets me a hotel room every night cus he knows i have this head injury and he feels bad .

he cut me off then, and my mum was dying — she literally would have died if i didn't go to that hospital and get her to leave . 🏥

i saw all this . i was a kick viewer, i saw how diluted and polluted it all was, all this bullshit . 📺

and now kick is like the number one media company, and i was like — how is every person at the top preaching nonsense taking a bag ? 💰

You push too hard, you disappear . 📉

yea its easy to be nothing after you pushed .

to have pushed and really pushed, and then you get fucked — THEN pushing again is soooooo much harder . but noone tells you that . 😮‍💨

You haven't seen . you need to feel when motherfuckers push back .

What hurts the most is when you fail a push and you think you have it . 💥

I self destruct . some people dont self destruct . 🌀

i make a mistake, and i make it again, and i make it 10 times worse than the first one . and i keep making them dumber and dumber and dumber . 🔁

i have incapability for sucess . its an infinite loop . ♾️